The First Moment

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God.

Religion.

Humanity.

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Three parts, all of which drive people crazy. Each tribe vying to control each part to varying degree’s.

I laugh at the ignorance of two parts of the equation – Religion and Humanity as it is well padded with ignorance, only the part of God holds it all together and needed, needed as much as the air breathed.

What is this ‘God’ so many believe in? For me a very good friend, a very wonderful Creator, the ultimate scientist, and my Master. I and i fear absolutely nothing on this world or others, only God has the power to destroy me. Only God can truly love me and guide me; religion and humanity try their best but are much like bacteria grown in a lab petri dish – they have a long way to evolve, a very long path indeed.

Being a Monster has it’s perks and reasons as only God truly knows. Even as this is written the pictures in this shells mind dance vividly and memories needed flood every cell of this body. Sadly though being a Monster has it’s downfalls…Unable to enjoy this world as it see’s it for what it really is thus for humanity the term, ‘ignorance is bliss’ is so very true.

But enough about me or what you only think you understand… Today, a story about a young boy named Jesus. A Human as it can be at full potential. A Human that showed this world Hope that is real not the imaginary hope that so many humans now cling too.

Most people on this primitive yet wonderful planet created by God know of Jesus and understand a lot as Jesus made it easier for the minds of humans to understand a basic tenet of what God is. Basically Jesus showed this world the potential of humanity with the simple act of being human while at the same time showing the world what God is.

Yes Jesus is a great man, a wonderful Human, and for your understanding – the Son of God, yet there is much more than just the title of Father or Son, so much more…

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The day was a sunny albeit chilly day as the young boy named Jesus was playing outside the town. His father was busy working at his trade of carpenter while his mother was busy preparing figs for a coming wedding ceremony.

This day the air smelled sweet, memories of the cool night lingered to mix with warming smells of day; rocks shimmered as the sunlight hit them and the wind provided a bit of chill to the air with the promise of warmth.

Playing with a stick and carrying his favorite feather he grabbed out of the air many days earlier – a feather coming from two chickens that were fighting outside his home- he hummed as he enjoyed the day.

Day after day the sun rose on one side of the world and set on the other. Year after year the seasons changed from the seasons of birth, growth, harvest, and death. Time flowed. Mankind grew, and today Jesus caught sight of a small rabbit laying motionless under a tree barren of leaves, a tree long past leaf and life.

Walking over to the tree and kneeling in the shadow, the young boy placed his feather on the ground along with the stick he was playing with. Reaching down he picked up the immobile rabbit and stroked its fur.

To be alive on this world is to know death. For Jesus he had already experienced death as animals were killed for food, people died with age, disease, and accident. For him he already knew death and that this rabbit had died at a young age, an age when the rabbits mother and siblings had already been consumed by the creatures of the world for food. This young rabbit would have already been consumed by the hawk if it had not been for another hawk fighting the successful hunter for its bounty, causing the grip on the body to soften and to fall in the shadow of the long-dead tree.

As the young man stroked the fur no words were spoken, the only sound was the wind whispering through the dead branches of the tree overhead.

Do you understand the mind of a child? What do you feel when you see the young smile and laugh? What is the emotion when spying a child sleeping soundly, their little lips pursed in dream? Or in the case of sadness, how do the tears of a crying child affect you?

Jesus had tears in his young eyes as those eyes saw more than death, more than this world, they saw the other worlds that exist. For him it was hurtful to see this young creature laying to be consumed by maggot or beast in this world.

A drop fell from the right eye of the boy, falling onto the fur while the little hands held and stroked. At this moment there was a gust of wind that caused the old rigid tree to shiver and quake.

The small rabbit opened its eyes and looked into the eyes of Jesus. It was not the look of a wild animal in the rabbits eyes, rather it was the look of peace. Still, Jesus held the small rabbit and stroked the now vibrant fur as the small rabbit enjoyed the touch.

On this world, your world, there is life and death. While life is a blessing, death is a necessary mechanism meant to fit the current evolutionary status. It is unavoidable for death to be denied, unless one is ready to deny death.

This small rabbit had been brought into the world in the normal way, it died in the normal way and now by the small boys hand had been brought to a new level of life, one very incompatible to this moment. No longer could the rabbit exist in the normal way as this world would soon consume such innocence. This rabbit would be ravaged and destroyed as this world is not ready for such Life. Jesus knew this and thus holding the rabbit over his head he handed the rabbit to the hawk that had been circling ever since Jesus had knelt before the once lifeless body.

Swooping down the hawk gently grabbed the rabbit and the two communicated great peace, both last seen flying higher and higher towards the sun until there was nothing left to see as nothing of this world can truly glimpse the other worlds. Rest assured though, both the hawk and rabbit were now living Life.

As Jesus stood he once more had his feather and stick in his hands and humming, proceeded down the path to explore more of the world. Behind him the wind still blew through the tree’s branches only now they were no longer dead as new buds had formed on some of the branches, next Spring they would blossom and show new life.

 

 

 

This is gonna be…fun!

I like being anonymous yet be what i am and after a month of not writing, yippee!

Any addiction is powerful. Food. Drink. Drugs. Sex. For this creature; writing is a very strong addiction.

For years the need to express and finding outlets via so many forums and sites.

Poetry Circle was nice in that the surroundings were wolves in sheep’s clothing. The best thing about that site is they do have wonderful tools for a writer to use, other than  that they are too much a representative of what’s wrong with this world of writers/writing. If you’re a reader/writer that really like to be a part of a well organized mob of writers you should join and embrace all the lovely folks there, just watch your back as wolves looooove to eat sheep…

Creator and Catalyst run by Mark is/was a wonderful place to create though currently Mark is having a spiritual battle within himself. I do admire his dedication to writers though.

Now the website- Aphelion- most excellent! Highly recommend that place for writers wanting to expand, create, and be. It was amazing they tolerated my crap and for this I will forever be thankful.

Yes, this new venue is going to be fun as you’re going to get not only the insight of a monster but you’re going to see clarification of what is going on in your world behind the ‘scenes’. A whole lot of shit most don’t realize is going on. Magic. Witchcraft. ‘Alien’ life. Druids. Time travel. Religion. Good. Evil. God. Satan.  Life. Death. Hate. Love. Deception on a grand  scale along with what is real. ( plus as an added bonus free of charge… your mind will be exposed to subliminal activity which has no ‘earthly’ words to describe.)

“Sounds like you’re crazy Robin, daresay, nuts?”

Ah, there you are parasite. Welcome to this new home. How do you like it?

“It sucks, just like you.”

Yes parasite, just like me, just like you…

“Must admit though, those new bags of potato chips were what lured me to come over here. That new spicy one is great.”

Yes reader this is going to be fun as it might even be entertaining for some. So much to write about and is there time to write it all? Ah yes, time. Always it comes down (never up) to time. The answer of course: Yes. All the time in the ‘world’.

And now, since there are a lot of words bottled up inside, time for a release.

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Dreams

Nightmares to scream as your sheets soak in sweat as the body crashes to the ground

Blood, gore, pain, it seems the bodies way for the mind to be

Bodies sweating; moaning lust of bliss; sensual pleasures beyond the awake – wet these dreams.

To awake to forget the recent scenes

Some dream of bliss, of better days, of success, of love, of joy, happiness

wishful scenes.

 

Asleep the R.E.M. provides Awake there is the ‘reality’

Really?

What is a dream?

What is a nightmare?

Angel guidance or Demons please?

 

Understand you cannot understand the answers as you can only dream

Only you can think you know the answers

But can you see what’s looking back?

God? Satan? Reality? Logic?

or are there names for that you cannot understand?

of course the answer is

yes.

 

My heart is ice cold and blacker than any demons soul

yet

warmer and  bright than any angels birthright

so?

 

For a monster there are no nightmares to forget, no moments of happiness or bliss to experience…

There is only the Dream, always

the Dream.

Cold

the-dance

 

Cold

Embrace fully the frosty lips of mistress winter

Breasts hard this nippled basalt

Fingers of frozen tree unbending, ungiving

Lost heat of watery thigh meandering

 

Sun above to feel the freeze

Moon to laugh in reply

A man left standing alone, his heart frozen

Lovers watched inside the warm home

Standing next to the fire

Never to know.

My very first post here…

Interesting how we know a bird has been someplace, anyplace…all by the evidence of the shit they drop. Now, some people (most people) hate bird shit, but not me. I love bird shit, I love a lot, in fact (get used to my shitty way of torturing the written word format) I know the insides and out of any form of love and let me tell you what, Love and love is/are great, AND and and a-n-d…they suck, much like bird shit.

My nickname is bigbird, my name is Robin, my name means nothing as I truly am a monster, a monster unlike you’ve never seen before.

What you will read here will be strange, offensive to many if not all, it is real, true, it is the mirror reflection of what i am, what I show the world, this shitty world.

Sometimes what you read will make this writer seem insane or stupid or genius or whatever, and that will be because of who YOU are. It does not matter only that i and I get this shit out of my head.

Now, I and i am no stranger to writing. I’ve written books no one will read, poetry that some have waded through, short stories here and there, even had a website, but that is all history. This is what is to be written now, this experiment of your world, your life, your will…You and you and you and even that shithead picking his balls over in Israel. This blog is all about you as monsters have nothing inside but ice.

Some basic outlines for what you will read in the following days/centuries/lifetimes… 1. Poetry 2. Stories 3. Ramblings 4. Pictures

Strong words of profanity will be used as they are real emotions captured and meant to be used by those who truly know how to use them, not abuse them like so many of you abuse fucking and love. The way ‘proper’ use of the English language will be abused to the point of breaking.

The pictures you will see here will be taken by my horrible skills of holding a camera or drawn by hands of a Monster.

If you enjoy what is here, great, if not, great.

Hold your life in your hands, make your Life what you can truly make it be,

and so,

the experiment continues…